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[22 Nov 2009|06:49pm] |
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In Portland right now. I'll write more later... just writing this down for now!
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| Hmmm |
[12 Nov 2009|07:10pm] |
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Reallly.... is it hard to not meet someone half-way??
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| Last one I swear. |
[11 Nov 2009|05:22pm] |
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Thinking of someone new always brings back a tinge of ache for you. I hate that you have this hold over my head and a chokehold on my heart. Mostly I hate that this realization that I miss you never tip-toes in.. it always hits like a ton of bricks.
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| The verticle stick. |
[11 Nov 2009|04:56pm] |
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I found that writing (even though I think I'm bad at it) is one of the greatest stress relievers. I'm in Barnes in Nobles right now, well suppose to be studying, but I need a break so I decided to update this now before I never do again, lol. I think I will make it a goal to write in this daily, I mean I did in high school. I'm so thankful I can read my old entries and remember days or events that happened that I forgot that existed. Sometimes just reading my old entries brings back some sketchy/sad/weird feelings and to think about how where I am today. It's good to have a vent area so you don't want to intrude on a friend. LJ was like a best friend to me years ago.
Right now, Fall semester is coming to a wrap. I register for Spring term tomorrow. Yay, it feels good to be a senior in college, yet the thought of graduating and find a job is tough to think about. Not sure what I want outta life yet? I feel like everything bad that could go bad in life already has. I don't mean to sound like life is that bad, but you know those veryyyyy veryyyyyyy low days.
I must say my move to Wyoming in January 2008 has been a great move. Even if I had a failed/best relationship happen over this past summer. I'm not bitter that things didn't work out. Its nice to move on with life and know that things happen for a reason, and the reason people aren't in your life anymore is because God has different plans for me and those people. On some happy thoughts... I'm very stoked about NEW MOON! Woot woot! I never thought I'd get into the whole Twilight Saga... but I look at this Saga as a different type of love story and HELLLLLOOOO?? It is a good love story, it doesn't really happen to anyone!
Well, I feel I did some good writing thus far. I gotta save up my thoughts for tomorrow! Have a good day to anyone that reads this or stumbles on this. :]
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| The past... |
[11 Nov 2009|04:47pm] |
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I remember back in high school.... disclosing all my pointless findings and random thoughts. I have no idea who is on here still but if people want to read my journal... I suppose that's good and people are interested. As I looked back at my old entries (some are private too) I find my memory sucks because I'm like, "OMG? That happened??" Kinda crazy. Even more crazy is what I did back in the day and how stupid I acted. I guess it being almost 4 years since I graduated I'll have more better things to write about. A lot has changed in between high school, college.... LIFE has been changing for the good and bad. I guess in the entries I'll be exploring the thoughts and feeling on just about everything.
Well... ta ta for now!
-Jessica
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I've decided to get back into Livejoournal. This entry isn't going to be the quick start but the next one and so on... thought I'd share this great news. :]
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| I'm back. |
[09 Jul 2008|09:06pm] |
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Go read in user info! xoxo
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| oh damn |
[16 Dec 2006|10:02am] |
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I've had a hard time since June 2006. Not starting college...but ever since I left for college..I've had friends deaths, and I found out the my boyfriend of forever welll, wasn't the amazing guy that I was in love with. Still, today I find myself almost in tears becasue I think of the past, because I haven't been able to move on nor forget. My brother is away in prison so I can't see him, and all have is my dad to really turn too. my mom is too asian complicated to get my feelings. Ugh.
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| Better-ness |
[14 Dec 2006|01:08am] |
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I can't sleep. My nose is stuffy. My head hurts. I'm tired. I have 2 finals tomorrow. I go home. I get to deal with my Mom, joy! Um, and I had a good dinner with Kim! Life is good and getting better! : ] The holidays will be good! If only my heart could feel better!
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| Update |
[21 Nov 2006|09:13pm] |
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It's been about 2 months since I updated... well ill just says things are good? Yeahhh :].. i promise to get back to this...
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| LAST NIGHT! |
[13 Aug 2006|08:58pm] |
Last night....
I hadddd soo much fun!
I went to Johnny Rockets and saw TALLADEGA NIGHTS: A BALLAD OF RICKY BOBBY with Abe last night! It was soo much fun, like fun I haven't had in months! :]
The day started out kinda bad when my Dad thought he was Jamal and definitely didn't want him taking me out. But after the miss confusion I was on my way. Talk about scaring guys away!
I enjoyed eating with Abe, cus we were jamming to the oldies.. and enjoying out food. I can say anything to him and him not get offended or just talk about anything in general.
The movie was hilarious! Ha ha, I would go see it twice if I wanted too. So you guys should really see it! :] The night ended by coming home and listening to T.I. in Abe's sweet car! I swear that guy is gonna find a lucky babe one day.
Ohh and I must say I loved seeing my Startbucks guy, Daniel there! :]
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| I'm MAD! |
[12 Aug 2006|02:10pm] |
My dad is making me kinda mad today.
He left me at home and got mad becuas emy phone bill was up when I didn't know going on the internet on it charged you.
He then thought he could get mad at me again ofr when he took my computer to get fixed and I had a list of what to fix and some passwords.
:P
I'm right now working on ym MYSPACE and just chillen. I am tired.
I didn't go to the beach today like I wished and so I'm like hmmm bummed.
I have the movies tonight and so I will lo9ok forward to that!!
Errrr, no more bad moments right now! And today was suppose to be my good day!
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[11 Aug 2006|11:09pm] |
Now that I do know there are readers, I think I want to restart writing. I remember when my life revolved on here! Ohh and LIVEJOURNAL. I even tired to get anew name..but come on... I am the 1957 PROM QUEEN...lol.
I guess this goes to my other addicting sites like Myspace, Facebook.. etc.
Well let's see. Where do I start to talk about where I am in life?? From my last few entries I notice I wrote about Abraham! He was my before in December of '05...lol. I'm actually going to the movies with him tomorrow night. (I dunno if it's a date or just a friends thing..but hey.... I like going out......)
I am home in Niceville for the next 2 weeks... til I go back to my Apt. in Tallahassee. I go to FSU and started this summer. I got all A"s so yay! I love it there. I don't party too much..but I tend to drop my guards and live it up there! I made lots of amazing friends and I dearly miss my friends here. I still can't believe I am graduated and like on to the next chapter to my life. I finally made it..lol
Usually here I can just go to Eglin all dya and get Popeye's or Starbuck's (made by my one and only Daniel! :]). Right now I just go to Starbucks, the gym and the pool. I gotta get in shape for the real ROTC in college.
I've been kind of in a depressed phase this past month due to a terrible breakup, that dealt with a boyfriend that I thought was beyond wonderful, caring and loving. He ended up coming out and telling me he's been cheating on me the whole time with a girl back home. Me and her got a talking and just found thousands of lies. I swear I thought he was something..and like in this state of unbelieving this happened to me. Errr, i guess this is what life is about and well I hope for the best for me and anyone that goes through this shit.
I think this is enough ranting for one night... I'll get back to this tomorrow! :]
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| Hmmmm |
[11 Aug 2006|12:15pm] |
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Does anyone still read this?
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[04 Jun 2006|09:20pm] |
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| nigga, be fo realll. |
[09 Feb 2006|06:27pm] |
So its been like a million years since I updated..and since Lindsey brought it up.i thought I would....
ill get more on later...
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| BOY DRAMA |
[01 Oct 2005|05:45pm] |
So the thing that's ticking me off real bad is Eddie.
He says I destroyed him and used him.
Let's take a look..... Me and him been friends for about 7 years and he wanted to date me. I never wanted to cus we were such good friends. He alwyas asked and said it would work. Fianlly I decided too. I was at a point thinknig maybe he'd help me forget some old crushes and I'd keep my mind clear. He didn't. I couldn't stand that and I felt like I was hurting the ones I still loved and were not over. I was like I can't kiss him cus I feell ike I'd be letting myself down and my ones I love cus it felt like cheating or sumthing? My oath was to not doing anything. Even if it meant 4 or 5 months still from now.
I didn't kiss Eddie (This week, Tues, Wednes and Thurs). I only held his hand once, and only gave him friend-hugs. We talked on the phone a bit, but that's all. Boy you need to fucking grow up! Be a damn man!
I tell my friends of what I should do and they say I had good intentions and that the way I am treating Eddie is like a friend. I should end it and it's not the positive way either. They were joking about like, "Your not gonna kiss him for 4 months" and stuff. I can't or have the drive too. But at the same time, some nameless perosn over hears this and tells him I'm using him and doesn't it was my friends trying to convince me what was wrong and right! Bitches need to don't get in my business!
So finally Eddie and I talk and I kinda let him know how i feel and he claims I was using him. WTF? What did i use you for?? Uhhh nothing??? He's destroyed, he claims he doesn't know me anymore, and he can't trust me. I told him from day one, I only like you as a friend, but NOOOOOO, he wants to be girlfriend/boyfriend.
Honestly what did I do wrong? Giving him a chance and when I saw it wouldn't work out, end it? Or do nothing with him? Boys and there fucking drama! I don't even date high school obys, so I dunno why I even considered it!
Oh yeah, we were going out for 3 days! But sumhow I destroyed him, sorry that I don't have the same feelings! In those 3 days. He knew I just wanted to be friends but insisted more. And when I told him to get over it and suck it up, he say's FUCK YOU.
I'm not sad or hurt, I'm still in love with someone else and its just stupid for sumone to be mad that its not them!
Goes to show who ppl turely are, but whatever, enough with this stupid high school DRAMA, brin gon the ROTC ones! LOL.
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| play with me now? |
[28 Sep 2005|07:05pm] |
So how that im getting in the swing of things back into LJ.. i need to recapture sum stuff.
PLAY by David Banner is my new song of the month. Heck yes.
I currently lowered my picture taking to 5 pics a day?..lol
More picture posts to come.
I have 4 A's. 1 B and 2 C's!
Ekkkk, no c's or ill die!
</3
i'm young and in love.
but he's like a million miles away, deployed.
I miss him alot.
<3 abe
work them hips. runnn girrrrrrllll.
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| Run girl! |
[28 Sep 2005|06:56pm] |
Man have i not done a picture post in sooo long?
I miss LIVEJOURNAL!
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